This weekend was such an emotional remembrance of Clayton. It was our 2nd annual MDA muscle walk as Team Clayton. There was a lot of differences this year. I think this year I allowed myself to feel. Feel everything i have been thinking about lately. Feel the pain, the devastation, the panic, the loneliness, the anger, the heartbreak, just to feel him. I felt him more than i have in a long time. That was something i really needed. I always know that he is with me, but this day was different. I felt him there, participating. It became more real for me when the walk was over and awards were being announced. When the award for "best team member" came up, and the speaker began with saying, "we nominate our daughter Kendall" I lost it, tears began pouring down my face. Out of the hundreds of people there, Kendall was being recognized. I knew that was Clayton, what an honor, all because of the love we have for Clayton.
Here is what they read as we were awarded "best team member"
Honorable Team member
Team Clayton
I would like to nominate our daughter Kendall Henning.
She
is our "rainbow baby" after the loss of her big brother Clayton, who is
the reason behind
team Clayton. Kendall was born May 18th 2012, just short of what would
have been Clayton's 1st birthday. After a lot of testing and a very
stressful pregnancy. Kendall is 100% healthy. She does NOT carry the
Myotubular Myopathy genetic disorder that Clayton suffered & passed
away from.
The
reason I am nominating her is because she has given us hope. After the
loss of Clayton, we needed hope. She has shown us to fight for love
& to have hope in hopeless situations. It is a blessing and pleasure
to have her walking with us this year in the MDA muscle walk in honor
of her brother.
I have never been so proud and humbled in all of my days. To be a mother of 2 beautiful children and to have them both honored in such a beautiful way, just took my breath away.
I miss Clayton more and more, but know, that he is right there beside us.
