Happy 9 month birthday little "rookie of the year"

Happy 9 month birthday Clayton!!! Happy Birthday! I feel like this is such a milestone to celebrate! As time passes, Clayton's birth months have different feelings behind them. This month I reflect on the fact that he'd be 9 months, holy crap! I have survived life without him for 8 months! I also think about this months birthday in a different way these days,  I am that much closer to meeting Clayton's little sister.  It's such an odd feeling, counting up the months that i've been without Clayton, yet counting down until I get to meet little miss henning. Talk about mixed emotions! I think i've done pretty well at maintaining my sanity, yet some days I just pray for the month of May to hurry up and get here. One minute I am still so devastated with Clayton being gone & the next I'm folding little pink clothes. It's just so very hard to explain. I can not wait until the day she is here, safe & sound. So I can begin telling her all about her brother and his wonderful life. I know in my heart that the reason Marcus & I are going to be parents again, with her due date so close to Clayton's birthday, is because of Clayton. I know he wanted this life for us. So today, which would have been his 9 month birthday. I remember him & thank him for bringing me comfort in my days of weakness. For if it weren't for him, I wouldn't be the person i am today.

This last weekend was the local MDA muscle walk. We had put together team Clayton, in memory of Clayton. The walk went wonderfully! It was a wonderful way to help others affected by muscle disorders all the while walking in the loving memory of Clayton. Team Clayton raised just under $4,000.00 for the MDA and was honored with "rookie of the year" most money raised by a new team!!! It was such a huge honor! I was caught off guard by the emotion I would feel about it, but knew it was all for the LOVE of my son, Clayton! We hope to continue to walk every year for team Clatyon, & for his memory. I thank everyone who donated to the MDA and also all who walked and supported us. We continue to be humbled by everyone's love & support.