I have been anticipating today, all week long. The 24th, the day we said our goodbyes. I didn't sleep at all last night, I just laid there, thinking about how life was so different now, and thinking about how life would have been? I wouldn't have been sleeping anyways :) so that wasn't much different! I can remember his last night & morning so well, like it was just yesterday. I remember it with beauty and courage, but most of all, with LOVE. It has been one hell of a ride the last 2 months since all of that. Many low points, but many high points too!
I have chosen this picture for many reasons, but I wanted you all to know the wonderful LOVE story behind it. When we were married I searched for a "good" song as Marcus would call it, not the same old same old wedding dance song. I came upon the song, "this kind of love" by sister hazel, I fell in LOVE! Marcus did too! So the song was our first dance song. A few years down the road, while I was planning the decor of Clayton's nursery, I ran upon a sign that said, "can't get enough of this kind of love." which was a lyric in the song! I knew i had to have it for the nursery. During all the time we spent with Clayton when he was sick, I always listened to the song, & I used it for his memorial video and just felt it was exactly how i felt about our marriage & our son. So the picture you are seeing is the sign in the nursery, and its right, I just can't get enough of this kind of love.
You can hear the song on my playlist on the bottom of the blog.
So today, 2 months after Clayton went to heaven. I reflect on the LOVE his life was, is and will always be.
XOXO
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